Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Wasted many year of blind alleys cos there's no one leading me.
Going through one path that just leads to despair and utter hopelessness.
and yes, i'm blinded. cos i'm still going through that dark alley knowing the consequences and complication it'll lead to.
yes i'm very stubborn cos knowing all this,
i kept praying and hoping ill one day, find the light that i've always been searching for in that darkness.
but now all i feel is pain of regret and disappointment.
on the other hand, only through this experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened. ryte?
more often than not, its the smaller thinks in life that hurts the more than the bigger ones.
i feel like screaming my lungs out. i feel like crying like a child wants milk.
i don't want to pretend to be happy and pretend everything's okay wen its actually not.
all i can do now is just pray to get thru this.
sobsob.
Going through one path that just leads to despair and utter hopelessness.
and yes, i'm blinded. cos i'm still going through that dark alley knowing the consequences and complication it'll lead to.
yes i'm very stubborn cos knowing all this,
i kept praying and hoping ill one day, find the light that i've always been searching for in that darkness.
but now all i feel is pain of regret and disappointment.
on the other hand, only through this experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened. ryte?
more often than not, its the smaller thinks in life that hurts the more than the bigger ones.
i feel like screaming my lungs out. i feel like crying like a child wants milk.
i don't want to pretend to be happy and pretend everything's okay wen its actually not.
all i can do now is just pray to get thru this.
sobsob.
what we could have been, 9:34 AM.
