Monday, March 24, 2008

flying off to bangkok! =)

yey!!!

be back soon ok!
i noe u guys gonna miss me..
aww.. i'll miss u guys too!
hehe.

sinorita..

what we could have been, 11:14 AM.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

candies. i had a whole lot of blast dat dae.

thanx for the meetups.

cos i miss u guys soo much. :)

and to whom it may concern,

im reli sorry dat i cant return the love that u need frm me. im jus nt ready yet. i have yet to find the key to open the door to my heart.

being in a rship is a lifetime comitmment.

and im not ready to take that risk again, yet.

its nt dat i dun wan to be ur fwen.

no doubt, yes i reli3 wana be ur fwen but im jus afraid dat i wld gif u hope.i dun wana gif u any hope. i didint noe wat to do.and soo... i stayed awae. and i noe it hurts badly. but i tot its just the best tink to do.

once again im sorrie. :(

i olwaes wish i cld make everyone happie.

but im sorrie. ive realised dat i dun have the ability to do so.i tot i cld. i tot i did. but instead i hurt plp more. :(

bcos of my fcuking past. i blamed all guys are the same.

no doubt sumhw or rather i still feel the same. im sorie.

i feel super duper bad.

im fickle minded. and i oways duno wat i want.

im oways makin wrong decisions.

and im oways lost and confuse.

my fwen oways envy me saying im oways hapie go lucky and all..

i may look all hapie everydae smiles and laughter like ders notink to care about.

but do u noe dat at the end of the dae.

wen im on the bus.

i wld stare into blank space and ask myself,

wat do i reli want..?

and i just cldnt get the answer to my question.

=_(

silly me__.

i miss love.

what we could have been, 10:49 AM.

Friday, March 21, 2008

i miss SNEK the other dae.
shit.

now i cnt miss this.
catch me and my teamates on

Belles in Action wed 7pm.
muahaha

what we could have been, 11:17 AM.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

elfi hana nurul and me.

i found dis in my photo album.

hhaha. look how much we have acualy grown. :)

and nurul. ur sooo chubby and now?? sooo slim sexa and gorgeous!!

haha.

elfi. remember the old times wen i slept over at ur place?

we oways play wrestling. u wld carry me and throw me on da bed. haha.

now i dun tink u cld even lift me up. haha.

suddenly miss the old times. ehehe.

ok. gdnite. =)

what we could have been, 10:20 AM.

p/s: im still alive. muahaha.

oh wells. kate busy women. :)

wen to a gay event with my soccer teamates.

crazee nite. but boring for a strait gal like me. haha

martina was like coming to me and sae " isnt there any straight guys here!!" haha

anyhoos, ive resigned as an enrolled nurse frm NUH.

and woking as a private agency nurse. at the same time im oso woking partyme at beaufort hotel and brewerkz.

yup2. i duno hw im gonna manage but im trying cosss.. ive to support maself.

sooo wondering which sch i got into???

haha. ive got offered for

higer nitec sports management, higher nitec paramedic and diploma in nursing.

sooo of cos i wld choose diploma in nursing! (yes nursing again..) but i decided to go for ngee ann cos ive got direct bus frm my hse.

chey3.. poly student or wat? haha.

what we could have been, 10:03 AM.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

DoubleTrouble.

(overdue picas.)

the beauty of a women is not in the clothes she wears, the figure she carries or the way she combs her hair.

the beauty of a women must be seen in her eyes, because dats the doorwae to her heart- the place where love resides.

what we could have been, 10:04 AM.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

u-19

ok. we lost both games.

but its soooo strange ok.

with u-19. we lost 2-0.

with young women we lost 4-0.

like how can dat be wen he have most of the national players in young women and we acualy did better with u19?

pelik tapi benar.

bu wathehell. u-19 played well niwae. it cld have been a draw.

what we could have been, 8:33 PM.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

i went to catch the movie "leap years".

and it made me reli reli cry a bucket. and worse.

i went out of the theater with my eyes swollen and red like as if i haven slept for weeks.

haha.

soo.. would you wait for sum1 u love for 12years?

i dunoe. its kinda hard to sae.

and i bumped into dillah todae!

and i ssooo sooo miss her la.

and fais isit? is soo adorable!

and ur have similar face wif ur sis.

at one glance i tot is was u. hehe.

what we could have been, 9:24 AM.

Saturday, March 1, 2008

i feel that.

there is sumone out there to mould our future.

in a diff wae.

and i feel that.

der is only ... only one.

faith gives us sum conditon. but wether u act to it or not is ur own excercise.

sumtymes the person whom u tink is the ryte one is acualy the wrong one.

soo. im done with full tyme. and now im goin partymes.

which earns double of wat my full tyme is paying me. which i tink is good. xcept with no CPF.

but wth. its good enuf for a partyme job while im waiting for school results.

and of cos. hopefully. i'll get short listed for poly.

all i wan is a diploma cert.

zzzz.

what we could have been, 10:13 AM.