Tuesday, October 30, 2007

like i promised.

hehe.

i tried doing on slideshows. but failed.

dumb2. haha.

OAC GEREK.

ME AND IZZAH

MATAKU TERBELIAK

I LIKE TO SQUZZE IN PICAS,

LIKE I SAID I LIKE TO SQUEZZE..

MAT REMPIT.

THE GANG.

SENYUM-SENYUM SLALU..

SOFA DAN KU..

CHAO!

what we could have been, 7:59 AM.

Monday, October 29, 2007

my team jus came bck frm malaysia.

and they wont 1-o

im so proud of dem.

reli.

hais.

nursing is just so making my life drifting apart.

partly la.like especially for my trainings.

i haven been atending trngs often bcos of my hectic scudule.

hais.

kk.

wait for me to return bck to sch and den ill concentrate fully okay.

till den,

no more national trngs for meanwhile.

and duh nationals deserve those breaks cos dey have definitely work hard.

soo soo hard. :)

kk.

hari raya with the oac's were so the gerekness!

i like. i had super so much happy fun :)

though once in a while i have o fake those smile jus to act as if im happy or even care bout blabla.

though its been a sore eyes for me. those tears im glad i cld hold it thruout the nite.

and thanx to dill izzah Q sofa fareed and roy for constantly reminding me dats tinks are so gonna b fine and dis is jus a test. :p

will update picas wokay once i steal it frm izzah or whoevever dat has dem.

haha

chao!

what we could have been, 2:45 AM.

Friday, October 26, 2007

todae my PASRAHS made my dae. =)

ive been feeling real down lately but i dun show it lah.

only tell my blog bout it.

i laugh and laugh.

and laughter is MY best medicine. =p

though it was time constrainIN. im glad we make made it to meet up at last la.

and i oways hope the dae nv ends la.

cos being with my candies makes me all hapie :(

i miss all of u alot!.

the laughter. the smile. the gossips and bitching.

ouh i loike! :p

but yeah. deep down me. only god noes hw i feel.

but no worries. im so gona tink positif and move on with my lyfe.ill apeciate wat i have nw.

at least. tryin to.

and todae dey give me my presents.

heeh. late but stil dey remember kan..

wen i reach home. i strait awae open it up like a child receiving chrismas presents. smiling to myself! hehe..

and ouh. i so love dem la.it fits me perfectly.

dats wat i call fwens. :)

thanx alot pasrahs. :)

till dis very dae i still receive presents and gifts for my bdae. haha.

and it kips cumin.

heeh. i so love it lah. i love presents.

it makes me hapie. oways so curios wats undeneath those wraps.

my fwen bought me little miss sunshine girl boxers.

and watever it is.

i wana be happie oways pls.

i wana be dat lil miss sunshine to maself and every1 around me. :)

can?

what we could have been, 8:31 AM.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

i'll cry all i wan. day and nite.
and u. yes u!
i. dun nid u to give a damn bout hw i feel.

ive been cheated like almost every guy i dated.
and ive been treated like a fcuking FOOL even wif the 1st guy i dated!

ive seen the worst of boys. ive heard the sweet words and voices of mens.
the lies and the mask they wore. hw their wrds fit perfectly right thru my heart wen it was acualy jus ..??

these plp have made me learnt. and im never gonna be treated like a FOOL ever again. and of cos im gonna learn frm my mistake..!

they hurt me ALOT. dey ruin me. dey fool me!
and if im nv gona satisfy my heart im not gona gif myself up.

its over now.
and i cld FUCK care less.
you guys are the same!

so back off me!

Labels: furiosME.

what we could have been, 9:11 AM.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

todae.

i cry and cry.
and i cried non-sop.

and den i cry again.and again and again.

=_(

ya ALLAH ya TUHANku.
kuat kan la semangat ku.
aku lemah. kuat kan la aku
ya ALLAH ya TUHANku.

why is all dis hapening to me?
wat shit did i do to desrve all dis!? =_(

what we could have been, 6:18 AM.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

(",) HELP me can?

i noe nobody cld help me other den maself.
but i reli duno hw to help maself. :(

feel so down. damn down la.
wat have dey got maself into?
or shall i sae. wat have i got maself into..?

:( :( :( :( :( :(

mcm maner nie?

what we could have been, 11:13 AM.

k bye!

i dun wana noe wats love. just yet.

and im jus not ready to open my heart again.

hope ull understand my situation.

or maeb jus leave and furget me.

maeb dat'll will make u so much hapier. :(

what we could have been, 10:16 AM.

Friday, October 19, 2007

oh i furgot to update on my bdae lah. :)

should i sae its a hapie on or shall i sae its a sad one? hmm.

my good fwen. or maeb use to b good fwens buay-ed me!

its a long story. but watever fcuk it is. i wana thank dem.

for cumin all the wae down and spend the nite with me. and makin my bdae a meaningful and joyous one! if it wasnt fur dem. i was there. all alone during my bdae.

yes. again i repeat. my good fwen buay-ed and lied to me!!!!

hw dissapointing is dat wen she promise me she'll be there!

thanks syaima fur the cake and ikha for the presence and all the new fwens u introduced to me. the were defintely awesome! :)

on my post bdae was dill's bdae.

and pre bdaes with the gals.

love u all for my bdaes. thanx alot. =))

what we could have been, 10:27 AM.

JAlan Raya with the nurses was so the GEREK-ness =)

eveyone was on off dae xcept me la!

soo sooo tired with all the sponging and argh. pathetic .

HATEdis job! cn wait to quit and go bck to school.

dis job is totally making me older at a faster rate. grr..

so after wrk dey fetch me @ wrk. wee~

pictures speaks:

first hse was yama's..

in the rented van. =)

at kak mulia hse. i didnt noe hw dumb i was. aku puase 6. todae was my 2nd day k. and todae is oso my 2nd dae of my period. hw stoopid was i not noeing dat im having period and fasting 6 at the same tyme? so wats with waking up at 430 for my syahur and the niat? get it?haha. and i only realise wen i reach the 2nd hse. dumdumb btol la cindy nie. =)

firecce tk harimau tu? .. :)

at kak melati hse. and oh-so-nice ok the hse! pls. so gona marry a rich men pls! haha.

mcm faham! u see those plasters on my feet? blame it on those stooid heels of mine ok! i swear ill never gona put on dat hopeless heels of mine. my feet mintak amput k on dat dae. nasib tk go public. klu tk.. i give up k!

i so love girls out bcos we can bitch around and gossip. hehe.

notink makes me hapier den having my GFs around me.

and it reli helps me get distracted. frm tinking bout him. =(

iMISShim badly. i reli duno wat i shld do. hais..

i eat too much todae plss!!

my stomach felt as if it was gona xplode like any moment i swear okay! me and aini is so goin swim tomorrow to burn off those unecesary fats we jus ate! argh!

niwae.

imissPARTY-ing. and so do my GFs.

no doubt.

its been months okay. =)

so wen..

and definitely. the main one is sooo gona be ZOUKOUT pls!!!

kk. geting all excited okay. teehee.

and i wana go for a holiday can? :(

redAng anyone? hmm..

what we could have been, 9:35 AM.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

2nd dae of raya.

we're out to the cuzzies. =p

todae i so feeling kaya cos my mom borrowed me her gelang emas!

wuhu.. look at my hand. haha.

njoi the picas-tue.

ni la org gelojoh kan! haha..

dis cuzzy of mine. his is OH-SO-NICE!

not only his room. but his whole hse make me go gugu-gaga!

if only my hse mcm tu kan best.

wait till i get married.. ill own a hse jus like dat. heeh. =)

CIK rama hse. my dad was like. so anis.. every sat u can cum to cik rama hse and blaja ugama ok. i was like.. err.. err.. ok? insyallah. haha

k. home swit home.

nxt year raya.

im sure its gona be grand.

my family is so gona wear the same colour cos by next year.

we are goin to be united again.

one whole family complete! yey! i hope! :)

zzz.

weking tomorow grrr!

what we could have been, 8:20 AM.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

HAPIErayaZAHIRbatin.

k. did i tell yall dat i hated my previous hair and dat im so gona do my hair again.

so i hilited it. and hell! it came out like a broom! i soo hate it lah! =(

grr. nvm. maeb in few weeks tyme. im so gona do sumtink to it again. gosh!

so i ask my dad.
"daddy daddy. i cn wear like dis for raya tk?" =)

CRAP! and i repeat. i hate my hair lah!

hmm.

so getting ready for photoshot and seeking of forgiveneness.

alamak. the seeking of forgifness part eh veri touching leh.

i was the last to go and the only one hu teared se. sungguh malu tau!

den all teh cuzzies came over to hse.

i feel so happie la. after so long not seing dem.

aww. ari raya ish the best where we cld catch tinks up with each other. =)

picas picas picastue..

k. chao chin chao. update again soon wokay! toddles. =)

what we could have been, 11:29 AM.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

next week is raya. and and.
i haven bot my aju kurung yet.
and im soo stresss la! hur-hur.

i went the whole of geylang twice. and yet i jus cldnt find one dat atracts my eyes or even suit me lah.

isit me? so cerewet or isit geylang dat dun sell nice kurung dats suits me?
haiyaya.

help me can?

what we could have been, 7:24 AM.

i just dun understand as to why..
the fact that sum assholes tink dt being in a rship is like in a game.
nt being taken seriously. for gawd sake. it concern one's heart.
suka2 pe kau nak kau simpan. kau tanak. kau buang je mcm tu.
mcm buat mainan plak.

it reli irritates me listening to toopids breakups and unecesary quarels.
the more i hear or listen bout all this.
the more my fear for being in an another rship increses.

i duno. i admit.
yes. i a hell of a coward in playing dis ''game'' again.

i just cnt bring myself to it.
maybe ive played to much "game" huh.
GOSH.

and i'll admit.
yes. iMISShim. =(

what we could have been, 6:19 AM.

im like a lost sheep. i still duno wat to do.

i still duno wat i want for my life.

wat if i make the wrong choice again?

wat if i regret and breakdown again?

whom do i trust. for now?

why isit so hard for me to just make a choice.

the ryte one.

ohwells.i guess i just nid sumtyme for maself.

to do sum self relfections and tink for my own best.

love or happy-ness?

what we could have been, 6:04 AM.