Tuesday, July 31, 2007

SUNRISEatJURONGhillTOP. :)

ok. im goin to post on my mom's bdae pulak. i relised dat ive been postin alot on birthdae dis few daes. tee hee. :)

MUmi's bdae. =)
we work up early around 6am.
decided to catch sunrise at JURONGhilltop.
we literally drag ourselves. we tot we gona missed it la cos everybody woke up late.

haha.
we just brush our teeth and wash our face.

and head off__. :)

lazy to rotate. hehe. sorie.
pictures while waiting fur the sunrise..

FAmily Bonding.. AWW...
den head to makan.
and home swit home.

at nite. supise mom with the bdae cake. =)

iLOVEmom. :)

what we could have been, 10:32 AM.

HEARTthrob :(

todae wen i open my mail. i received a msg frm a classmate in ite. sofawati! she send me dis..

You are far.we seldom meet... but i remember for all the gd deed that you share with me during skool time... i really miss u...u are a frend of my who is unique & fun...

never the less you are there for me when i need someone during skool time... without u, my ite life mayb plain & bored. u add spices to my ite life. I never had so much fun being a ite student then ever in my life. im here to say gd bye to you... i really hope i can meet u again.

u are a gerl with full of vibrant, energy & determination.

Don't let people destroy ur dream my gerl... Faith, hope, believed & dream will moved u on no matter how difficult it is... i know i'm not so closed to as you do with yana, yama & jana. I juz wish, how i can get closer with u while time & day still permit before we start our career in NUH... but, it didn't happen.. i hope to see you feeling happy with all ur dream fullfiled. I'm living s'pore soon... shifting to Austrilia to advance my career... I'm going to miss my unique, vibrant, fun friend that always make my day...

Cindy Nuranis is ur name...

Love You...

Thank You for all Ur deeds.

I'll remember u as long as i lived...

gd bye.. :)

SecRetly Noted To You bY: SofAiKeAcOuRt

( in the train after school 2005 )

my heart drop! suddenly i feel like crying!!

i strait awae gave her a call. it could not get thru!!

she must have gone awae oredi!

hw cld she ever go w/o calling me!!!

she was ma classmate during ite. me and her. we're close fwens! evverywhere we go.. we're oways together k!she always like to skip sch. den i'll be the one scolding her askin her to cum sch and nv give up!

i wld force her to study wif me!

i wld oways teach her and guide her wif her studies.

i wld be forcing her to cum for cca. bcos she oways wans to lose weight. we wld help each other wenever we can.

plp kind of dislike her in our class. but nt me. cos i apreciate her. =(

we oways go home together after sch.

i will force her to walk to simei mrt. cos she's oways lazy as she wana take bus. we're oways tired after sch. so in da train. she will lend me her shoulder to sleep on and allow me to listen to her ipod.

aww.. i miss those daes. i miss her lehz.

hw cn u go without meeting up 1st sofa!!!

arrr..!!!!

what we could have been, 6:55 AM.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

SKYhigHAPIE

know why? .. :)

i pass ma BEEP test!
gosh.

i was so afraid of dat beep test.
afraid dat i wld fail again. :(

bcos the last beep test i was frm ma nite shift and i lack of rest.
and i failed. our passing mark was 9. and i reached 8.8 sumwhere there.
and this time. coincidentally.. again after ma nite shift is ma BEEP test. i so have dat feeling im was gona fail again!

little did i noe..

i PASSED! :)
i reached 9.8. its a gd difference lehz.

to me la.. haha.

and dada is ma motivation. wen i did dat test.
i wanted to give up halfwae.
but i keep telling maself i have to tell dada dat i pass the test.

I DID!! wee~
k chao. todae is sundae. and im wrking.

damn!

what we could have been, 7:31 PM.

gives.Life.MOre.BITES__.

Hapie bdae GF. =)

the gAthering cum bdae celebration. wee~

hw fast a year have past.

only like last year we gave u a suprise kat esplanade. but it felt like only yesterdae huh.

haha. oh wells.

me and yana met up early to seach fur her bdae cake. and wa-lah. we got her oreo cheesecake.and its so delisiouSLY sinful-NESS! gosh.

we had out lunch cum dinner ard BREEKS cafe.

and the food.. was wae too awesome OK! =) thumbs up.

we ate till we were so hyper-active cos it seems dat had too much of cheese dat dae!

GAWD!

we walk around and jus go lepak-ing cum chamwhore cum gossiping cum updates here and there ard coffee bean.

OH though theres time limit. we sure do had a blast!

and we gona meet up soon. ryte gals?

with the missing one too?

and again. HAPIE BDAE my dear gf JAN. =)

hope u had fun. :)

da besar anak mak eh..

what we could have been, 7:25 AM.

Monday, July 23, 2007

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)[?] In Detail

If your life is a see-saw, then you're sitting in the middle right now!

You are the picture of balance, someone who isn't too much this and isn't too much that. While there are polarizing issues all around you today, you will always be able to see both sides of the story.

This won't keep you from making choices, but it will definitely keep you from making enemies!

Enjoy your objectivity, and try to encourage other people to follow in your footsteps.

what we could have been, 1:38 PM.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

what we could have been, 10:22 AM.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

oLE.oLE.olE__.

todae game at serangoon todae against bishan arsenal.
1st 11. i acualy felt guilty la..i haven been cumin for trng and coach put me 1st 11 to play. hais. but pls la. its nt dat i dun wana cum 4 trng. its jus dat im wrking. sumtymes the scdule clashed!

-sigh-

niwae we won. 3-1. i was so hapie la of cos!! hehe.
and coach acualy declared nisa man of the match!

i was more den hapie can? ...
=)

so HAPIE. =p
he called me out of a sudden.
hw much i missed him..
gosh! nobody noes..

=p friends? __.

what we could have been, 9:54 AM.

Friday, July 20, 2007

randoms@ weeHRS

__

I hate myself to noe wats love.
i hate myself to learn wats a world w/o love..?
.wth.

i hate myself for hating myself.

stOOpid me.
-sigh-

im falling apart each dae..
but im holding on..
very strong.

sumtymes u cant follow ur heart.
bcos the more you follow ur heart..
the more u end up torn apart.

this world now seem so plain. so dull.
i have lots. lots of path to choose.
frm hapiness to luxury to charmed to bla bla..
but i choose to avoid dem.

why? bcos im nw a coward. to get involve..
involve in all this silly tink called love..
wats love? i dun wana noe.
the word love dun seem nice to me nimore.
dun look red. preety and swit to me nimore.

i never wana go thru the stage of heartbreaking ever again!
can i?

i never wan to.. but it seem so atached to me cs it hapen time and time again.

i never wana be in a rship again.
can i? i duno. =(

not now. not soon. not until ma wound is healed! again.. =(
we dun nid to be a couple to get married ryte?
can i just b fwen and get married once im ready?

haha -crap-

im sorie. to ma fragile heart for taking coutless risk and end up getting in dis shit. yes i apologise. i've nw learn my mistake. i will try very hard to avoid these..

will you forgive me?

Labels: feeling bue__.

what we could have been, 10:43 AM.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

AntiOdEPREsanT.

DAY1.

dAY2.

this is what i have been doing juat to let ma hair down.

after 10daes strait daes of wrkings.

grrr..

im hating ma rooster.. =(

im sickANDtired.. can?/

what we could have been, 10:41 AM.

itsMYbirthdae___.

haha. yes i've got to tell u guys bout dis dae 19.7.07

my burfdae?

haha.

ok2..

1st tink hapen. dat freaks me out__

while i was on duty todae. my ward clerk came to me telling me there is a guy looking for me at the couter wif a flower. i was like.. ''hu the hell siak''..

he is just a delivery man la delivering flower for me.

and its frm AIS. like wat the hell siak. i dun even noe hu the hell is dis AIS.

kk..

den after wrk. me. ana. aini. and mai.

head down to jurong point and decided to have dinner @ fish and co.

ntah ape angin ribot. aku nk blanja drg..

skali we sat down with the menu.

ana: er...do u acept nets..?

waitress: sorrie. so dun.

ana: oh so sorie. maeb we cum bck later after we w/draw sum cash.

hhaha. as usual we didin bother to go bck. haha...

so we decided to have dinner at pizza hut. 4 of us we so craving for the cheese fondue.

we were oredi salivating. aha..

dis is where the drama starts.

the ice cream we odered. came 1st.

and wen the guy served us the ice cream. ana was like saying out loud.

''eh toddae is ur bdae ryte anis''.. ( bluf one la.. oso duno y she sae dat. haha )

and so.. few mins ltr. the guy came bck and ask me.

''can i confirm with u. isit ur birthdae todae?''

i was like.. ''ya ya.. why huh?''

he: oh notink just asking.

few minutes later. the dining light goes off. were we like.. ''eehh...''

den burfdae song came out lah dedicating for me okay!! we were so paiceh lah..! as the song were playing.. the guy came out with bluberry cheese wif a candle okay! so swit la okay!!

he is nazrul. haha. dat present me wif the cake.. aww.. so swit. hehe

den he goes.. ''hapie badae''.. =)

so touched okay. nobody celebrated ma badae like dat b4.. hmph!

only on ma ''fake badae'' plp do fur me lah.. haha

took picas while waiting fur our food..

see dat sunflower. i received it at wrk just nw.

the cake.. yes its ma ''burfdae cake!''.. haha

hehe.. i had a blast.

err.. on ma burfdae? hehe

what we could have been, 5:31 AM.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

todae is a SAT. and im wrking PMshift!
argh.
like WTH!!

humid and veri the slacking dae.

ouh. have i told yall.
i tink i have a stalker after me.

everywhere i go. he is there.
after wrk. he'll be under ma block following me!
GOSH!

even after club at 4am he will be there under ma block.

and dis is so freaking me out!

he bought for stuffs like chocs flowers and stuff like dat.
and and..

he todae! he wen to search for me all over oncology ward!!!
and tadah!.. he found me at ma ward.

so shocked la! and he gift me a box.
and big box wrap around ribbons..
and inside it was all chocs and sweets!
lots of dem...

(dat xplains why i have tooth aches huh! ) haha

and he wld be like calling me 24hrs!
in the middle of the nite. i will receive 30over miss call frm him
b4 trng.. 20 over.
after trng 10 over.
dat kind of tink! GOSH.

i told ma coluge dat he's a stalker.
but daey was like..

no... he's in love.

like wat the fuck?
argh.

and did i tell u dat he is rich.
yes he fucking rich.

but no. im nt after $$.
im nt money minded though i love money and nid dem desperately!

haha..

what we could have been, 1:11 AM.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

WHY do i try so hard..
so hard to avoid you.
wen i acualy wan to be near u..

as near as i cld..

sob-sob. =_(

why isit wen im near you.
it feels like as if we are so far at heart?

cindy!! grow up damn!
ARGH!

cibai-ne-ne.

what we could have been, 5:45 AM.

i dun wana be known as one depressed soul.
i dun wana be known as the girl hu is oways sad.
i dun wana be known as the girl hu oways cry..

i wana be happy.
oways..

i wana be cheerful and smile as oways.

i wana cheer plp up and make dem smile too wen dey're down.
but how to.. wen i maself is farktup! =(

sorie friends. =I

what we could have been, 5:40 AM.

am i on the brink of an emotional breakdown?

i doubt anyone noticed..

what we could have been, 5:24 AM.

iHATEmaself.

why am i so weak.

y do i apear to be strong.
but yet so weak in the inside?

why do i appear to be happy-go-lucky.
but deep down me are all tears dat are acumulated ever since dat dae. dat very dae..

y cnt i just move on wif life as per normal.
why isit do difficult? =_(

why do i smile but yet i cry?

im still as confuse..
do i wait?
or do i move on..

its hurts me so much to pretend like as if i dun even care all dis while.

why do i still dream of u every now and then..

why do i still miss you..
why do i still yearn for you. your love. ??

why why why??!!

i hate maself!
for being soo weak..in the inside =_(

what we could have been, 5:14 AM.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

___GUESSwhosback.BACKagain.

yeah. im back frm manila. few weeks back.
and im posting bout it nw. scdule hv been really packed!
yes! manila was waee... AWE-someness

we stay with lots of plp in a room. and we build bond.
though the environment sucks! but i have a hell lots of fun. =)

so. sendingg me off to the airport as per normal was just the two great buddies i have in ma life..

they are the 2 plp hu have nv fail to constantly send me off every trip. and i reli apreciate dat.

thakew best budd. =)

soo..in the airplane.

sat with GINAsiaochabo. i tot it was gona be wae bored sitting wif her alone. i mean jus the two of us.. wae back. wen the rest of dem is wae front. ahaha.. but i had fun. reli.

we tok crap and oso we tok prawns. huh?! =)

but sumtymes to her. heart pain. she cn jus close her eyes like she dun even bother. hmpgh!
we made fwens with a philipino guys bside us.

the conversation ends like dis.
we both we jus laughing like mad plp..

GINA: ( pointing to me) She's mad.
me: (POINTNG TO GINA) she's mad
GUY: u both are marrd..

kk.. reach airport den we head phil's chairman of womens fotball home for dinner.
the house was cool. huge! but... only one fan la! damn humid men..
everybody was jus perspiring cnt wait to go to the ''hotel'' which everybody was expecting.

bhind us is swiming pool.

the ''hotel''. SUCKS! haha. oh yes. the house like condo. huge.
2storey.on top 3rooms. each room.. like 10 plp. hee. OMG. but cum to tink of it. i dun reli mind acualy.. cos i dun have to worry esp at nite. haha. (my secret. haha)

guess wat.. water was limited k. be it shower. big buisness. sml buisnes. drinking?the water pipe wasnt open bcos dey sae dat its been a long time since anyone lives there. haha.everyone was sighing here and there hopin dey cld just fly hm dat minute. but nt me.. hehe =)and we din slip on bed like our usual trip. we slept on matress ok. old matt!
but so wat. im comfatable niwae. haha.