Saturday, November 24, 2007

.i remember you.

We mite be the bestest of fwen dat year. preety good fwens the nxt year and dont talk often the next and not talk at all thr year after that.

everyone tells their fwen they'll be fwens forever. but hw often does dat last?

i jus wan to sae dat even if i never tok to u again in my life. you are special to me and have made a difference in my life. i look up to u and truly cherish you.

i miss you.

i'll show u sum pictures k.

veri kental but its all memories.

me and non other den ernie sulastri bte sontaril.

15years of friendship and is still countin on.

she is my cute short fwen with the biggest heart.

she is the most postive fwen ive ever known.

she is the best of the best fwen u cld ever ask for.

she was oways there for me wen i nided sum1 most.

she was oways there to cheer me up wen i oways merajok.

she was there in terms of my good and bad times.

she was oways there waiting for me to finish class.

she was oways there to help me with advices.

she was oways there to lift me up.

nobody knows me like she does.

we were oways doin stoopid and crazy tinks together. we omost got into fights with sum minah-reps.

she is the most humble person ive ever knew.

she oways wans the best for me.we oways slept over each others crib.if yall notice we have been wearing the same necklace and leg band almost every picture. its been years till dis veri da its still on me. and ill put it on for as long as it cld hold.

dis i tink was the veri 1st picture we took in primary school =)

again. imissu bestie.
a real fwen is sumone hu will walks in wen the world walks out.

what we could have been, 11:01 AM.

do you noe that people hu appear to be stong at heart are acually those hu are weak?

do you noe that people hu spend most of their tyme helpin others are people hu are the one needs help?

i guess the most importants tinks to say seems to be the hardest to say.

too many of us stays wallled up bcos we are afraid to care too much for the fear that others dun care as much or even at all.

we tell lies wen we are afraid. afraid if we duno. wat others mite tink. everytime we tell lies the fear grows wae stronger.

life is all about risk. and it required u to jump.

dun be a person hu have to look bck and ponder wat dey cld have done.

what we could have been, 10:10 AM.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

RANDOMness__.
on nite shift again.
oh u noe hw much i hate nite shift.
men. the non-stop call bells. ouh cld u jus gimme a break.
hmm. and rmember the recent entry i tok bout dis iritating apek.
gosh. he is back! grrr.

kk. pay day. pls cum fast pls.
im so fcukin broke nw lar and i seriously nid to do retail therapy!

life has been ok.
i tink im much happier nw =)
im hapie livin single definitely.
who sae i nid to be hooked up with.
i tink im being pampered too much. u see.
i've got my own personal chafeur w/o being asked.
wherever i wana go. i jus hola and he'll be there.
to and fro anytime anywhere.
i get wat i want wenever i crave for sumtink.
im sure to have company wenever im alone.
im being treated like a princess ever nw and den.
etc. etc

cum to tink of it. i practically get anytink i wan.
its jus wether i wan it or nt.

i use to hate all dis. i use to tink. i dun nid all dis crap.
but hey, she once told me dat uve goto apeciate these tinks cos good tink oways cums to an end.
all this is ending soon so make use of it. =)
and i tink im hapie. happier! definitely.

i oways ponder bck. y hold on to sumtyme hu dun even care?
im apreciating the plp around me.
ive moved on of cos n im glad i did. =p
i miss my candies.

CLOSEears__.

and to my dear eruarwa or watever shit ur bloddy damn parents call u. ( dats if u have one la )or u simply give urself name since it was frm unknown to wat? erruuuarrwa isit? haha. wat a weird name to kol urself. ngok mcm aku. anis. manis je.. at least cindy is still nice to hear. haha. kk.
tag all u wana tag if dats wat ur only good at.sampai tangan cramp smua tag la ribu2. haha.i guess ur practicaally jobless. dat xplains y uve got so much tyme to do all this huh. poor u. FYI im nt even moved or even bloddy give a shit bout ur imature or shall i sae makbpk tk ajar kind of atitude. u tink i even bother or u tink im ashamed? or u tink prangai sundal kau ni is making me furious? haha. fuck u! kau leh g isap buah pleh kambing. if u deny urself coward. den hola or meet me and tok to me for watever shit ur nt happie about. kanina. ( *middlefingle )

what we could have been, 11:51 AM.

wats with hate taggers huh?
i dun seem to understand.
soo immature. haha.

they're cowards i guess.
or maeb jealous.
dun even dare to reveal demselves.
cum la confront me and tok one on one wat ur nt hapie bout.

NBCC.

what we could have been, 6:11 AM.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

one of my patient. he hardly tok. he kips quite like ever since he was admitted. i hardly tok to him ok. but todae was sumtink. he held my had and urut sum parts of it and suddenly sae dis.

"nak, cinta itu setia. iklas. jujur dan amanah. bahagia itu susah sama dirasa. senang sama gembira. ini lah pengalaman hidop. pakcik harap kau dapat apa yg kau carik. pasangan bahagia. kedua-duanya klu bersatu dipanggil kasih sayang.

den u goes on.

"pakcik tau kau byk pengorbanan. pakcik tau mase depan kau akan senang tapi dalam perjalanan itu. kau akn temui byk cabaran. kau perlu byk bersabar. pakcik tau kau nye org byk simpan dlm. tk bgs nak. luah kan perasaan tu.."

and end it by saying " sabar je la nak.. "

i was like huh.? and as he was saying all dis he kept lookin at his palm like as though he is reading frm dem.

weird huh.

like as though he noes was im goin thru in my life at dis moment.

what we could have been, 6:41 AM.

Friday, November 2, 2007

he says
"just remember every moment spent with u were e sweetest sepanjang perkenalan kita berdua.."

what we could have been, 9:41 AM.

Thursday, November 1, 2007

sumtymes i ask myself.
will i ever.

one day.
find the one?

what we could have been, 11:34 AM.