Saturday, September 8, 2007

MEET the FUGHLY

i DUNO why.

but i just love to look and stare ard preety gals.
i'll view their frenster picas or blogs over and over again.

i stare at dem outside. and sumtymes plp get me wrong for not being hapie but acualy bcos they hot.

dun get me wrong.

im no lEsbians.
dats jus part of my side hobby.

haha.

dey're just my inspirations.

i wish i cld be as gorgeous jus like dem.

i wish i cld have a nice body.

no. not fur guys to drool for watsoever.

for me. wen u look good. u feel good too.

ryte?

ive been wrking so hard.

but i just cldnt get the results i wan!

grr.. its so frustrating la.!

my metabolism level is damn low i tell u.sumtymes wen i xcercise more den i eat.

i still cn gain weight lehz!

the more my body wld seemed jus like a guy.

duno wether its muscle or fats.

but its sure fat la. of cos. cos i look and feel damn fat la!

sob-sob.
sumtymes wen i look at the mirror or my reflection.

i go.." eww!so gross!"

reli..

even my sister will go like.

"are u okay"..

haha.

jus random xpressions of wat ive been feeling dis past few weeks.

or maybe infact. my whole life!

sumtymes i shout at my reflection

"arrgh, jus get out if this fat bods."

call me mad. im not.

dear taggers,

stop. stop at ur tinking.

i noe after dis ur gonna give a tags.

stating bla bla.

"common cindy. ur PREETY. ur gorgeous. bla bla"

dun. pls dun.

cos i noe im not. i noe hw i look. i noe myself. i reli do.

DAMN!

whats with me huh?

i've realise hw isolated ive let myself bcum. :(

*yakk-disssh!*

what we could have been, 12:33 AM.