sumtimes seriously i feeel so stoopid. i regret doing thinks dat i tot was ryte. oh well.. its lyke almos everydae we quarel. and it nv stop. i reli hate dis. reli.
almos everydae, ma heart aches. i teared. wondering wen is dis r'ship ever gona work out.. or it never will. i gave him too many chance. and i still do. i held on strongly. trying to wrk everytink out. i trusted HIS fcuking words. his fcuking promises! all dis was jus a lie. he nv do wat he said he wld do! I HATE HIM. BUT I love him.. y? i wish i knew the answer to dis.
wen is all dis gona stop! fcuk!
HE DOING ALL DIS EVERYDAE. HE PROOF TO ME HW MUCH I ACUALY MEANT TO HIM.
HE Made me feel like i nv acualy exist ..
he nv make me feel like im special.

though he's my bf..
i dun feel any special bout him.
he is jus a bf.
he nv show his love or care.
im feelings fur him are slowly fading...
soon it will disapear..
all thanx to him.
what we could have been, 6:24 AM.